Go to the library

this weekend has been terribly long. I've discovered a few things though.

I need a real bed, off of the ground. I hit my face on the wall in the middle of the night, I dont ever want to wake up like that again, wondering if i broke my nose....

The future is dependent on my present actions.

You cannot save anyone from themselves.

I cannot be a martyr to my own hopeless romantic tendencies.

Some people can never be helped, because they cannot help themselves. I walk past the same woman that sits on the corner of whitley and hollywood week after week; but this time, someone had given her a pillow, which she decided to let lay by her feet, while her head rested flat on a thin towel covering the pavement..

People use music as an excuse to let their brain turn to useless putty. I've been going to MI long enough to assess the overwhelming number of students with personality conflicts left unattended, subsequently polluting their every interaction. Their speech is meaningless, relationships skin deep, and perception of the world limited to something found on Sesame Street. They can name all of Metallicas albums without blinking, but ask them to name the last five presidents, the three branches of government, the role of the U.N., NATO, NAFTA treaty, for God's sake the current PM of Britain, Russia, the top three religions internationally, the concept of a greek tragedy, comedy. Western Literature, Eastern Cultures... it goes on and on. I grow tired of the shallowness, because it sucks me dry after awhile as well.


Music is stimulation, but so is knowledge, community, introspection, and any other form of expression and communication. There are no excuses anymore for a lack of knowledge or understanding. How can you hope to play infront of thousands of people if you do not have the slightest hint of how to speak privately with friends and strangers alike, let alone on a public stage.

You can't jump into a pool and not get wet. In the same mindset, you cannot wield the arts, and all that they stand for, without the will and the mind and the responsibility required to make it timeless and universal. People look to celebrities for answers, because in the spotlight should be someone greater than what they may find in themselves, but it remains untrue all too often anymore.

there, I'm done complaining.

goodnight.