So ya, I got a new hat today. Kohls had a huge sale on all of their stock, and so I bought some new pants, a light jacket and a some light long sleeve shirts. The nights in California can be a little chilly, and as we march toward "fall and winter" I decided to not fall short on clothing.
I spent most of the day with my dad, which is kind of weird, but good, as we do not communicate very clearly and easily with one another. Today was the exception and was quite enjoyable.
In the face of the looming credit crisis, I am becoming increasingly worried that I wont have the loans I will need to attend school at MTSU in a year from now. My parents support ends in a year too, so if things dont right side up soon, I might be reserved to scratching a living out of music, which I am still very unsure of how to go about. As much as I hate the economic rescue bill (H.R. 1424... I think), It is probably the only thing that will allow me to pursue future degrees in philosophy, english, and or law. So, once again, I find myself conflicted that I need something I hate so very much.
Today was the only real Autumn I am going to get to experience this year. It was cold today, highs in the 50's. The leaves are turning colors quickly. My dad pointed out a maple that was turning a fiery red. I packed away my journals from the last 8 months, a collection of 12 yellow legal notepads. I was going to read through them, but it would take far too long than I am willing to deal with, and I think some of the issues are too fresh and unhealed to go in and rehash. I guess we all need a little hibernation every now and then.
I leave in the morning for Los Angeles, and with an open heart and mind I hope to find the best things that I can. I long for it to last, I really do. For six months I have been living something that so many have seen as "incredible" "awesome" "opportunity", but have had little success in finding those things out. Perhaps they stand right in front of me daily.
Favorites of today:
Anberlins album "New Surrender"
Cold mornings
Rose wine
My Father
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