I need a break from today

I wanted to walk out of class today, shed my responsibilities and drive down to the beach for the day. But then I remembered how that a day away from school means 2 days catching up, and my car sits in a driveway at my sisters house, 3 time zones away. 

Holloween is coming up this Friday. It's been one non stop party here in Hollywood since this last Saturday. I'll be glad when the debauchery is over. Between the medicines and the partiers, I haven't slept through the night in over a week. Maybe I've missed the point of all the revelry, or maybe I learned all too quickly about the slow but debilitating effects of a lifestyle more focused on not being focused, because I can't be apart of all this. I am completely in the wrong city. 

This isnt the place that values integrity, consistency, persistence. They call it the city of broken hearts and broken dreams, but when i talk to those with the dreams swinging their heart, they are on their way to a night of drunkin and drugged insanity. They'll sleep half the next day, and when the call comes again, they are getting dressed to go out again... maybe they'll hit the audition next week. Department of Redundancy Department. 

So I stay inside, and eat my dinners on the rooftop, observing the steel high rises being built, the sirens, the shouts from the street; I go to school for 10 hours and do my work, and when I walk home, I fight with myself on whether I should look up and observe the world, or stare at the sidewalk so I disappear from all the preying fools.

I would like a short vacation I think.